We’re So Happy You’re So Happy!

‘Have you heard?’

‘Any news yet?’

‘Let me know as soon as you hear!’

How many times have you sent a message similar to these whilst waiting to hear the outcome of an audition? Personally I have sent far too many over the years. Desperate to know what’s happening, secretly hoping that you get a ‘no nothing yet’ so you feel like you still have a chance. And then comes the pleading emails to your agent, bugging them like an irritant fly buzzing around their office. 

Yes, I have this scenario well rehearsed. In fact, it’s worthy of an award. But the other day it hit me like a ton of bricks, every time I reached out for reassurance I was adding more and more resistance to manifesting my desires. It couldn’t have been any clearer. 

Last week I had built enough momentum to receive 8 auditions in 10 days. For a long time I have held a belief that getting an acting job involved struggle and disappointment so I was so grateful to acknowledge that I had raised my vibration way beyond this belief. The flow was electric, I felt alive, creative and excited. In every audition I felt present, in flow and closer to my true authentic self. I loved it. 

The shows that I was auditioning for were also very deliberate. One I had worked on for 10 months a few years ago and the other falls into the category of being a ‘dream show’. It was really no coincidence to me that I had attracted both of them into my experience. In fact there were many events surrounding the ‘dream show’ that unfolded effortlessly onto my path, it felt clear that I was apart of the creation.

Prior to the auditions I truly believed that this was it. I felt like I ticked all the boxes, it was a no brainer that I would be cast in the show. I could imagine myself in the show, the thought of it excited me. It filled me with clarity and purpose. You know that sensation when you feel like your chest is going to explode? I even went to see the show just before the audition which helped my imagination run wild. I remember feeling on such a come down the next day because I’m sure that I experienced vibrationally how it would feel to be in the show the day before. 

So I’m sure that you can guess the outcome: I didn’t get it. Well, what went wrong? I didn’t get out of the way in order to let the universe deliver my desire. I didn’t get off of the subject, I was adding layers and layers of resistance with every conversation I was having about it. 

I thought at the time that by constantly talking about what I thought was coming my way with those close to me that I was helping myself focus on my desire. But it comes back to that analogy of planting your vegetables then stamping on them and not allowing them the space to grow. I was stamping and stamping hard! What also is interesting is the fact that I felt the need to talk about it, surely if I truly believed that it was mine then there would be no need to discuss it. I was looking for reassurance that I was worthy of the job and confirmation that I wasn’t being foolish. Although those close to me have my best interests at heart only can know how close I am to becoming a vibrational match to my desire. Oh the relief when I worked that one out was euphoric! 

I also discovered that going general rather than focusing on specifics is way more productive. It’s so easy to pin all your hopes and dreams on one show but I feel that by adding specifics you’re adding resistance. What am I hoping to achieve vibrationally by being cast in a show? How will it make me feel? Am I experiencing that joy now? 

It would have been so easy to fall into a pit of misery at the start of the week when I had two ‘no’s’ in succession. Well no thank you! Everything that I am experiencing is an exact match to what I am offering vibrationally. All it takes is some fine tuning to the frequency that I am offering and then I intend to get off of the subject! Relax and enjoy the expansion. I am exactly where I intended to be.


I Know Things Now

There are things that I have come to understand about the universe. In a nutshell we are extensions of Source Energy and we have come to this physical reality to create. Create with absolute joy!

I’m sure that a lot of you have come across a little book called ‘The Secret’ which is a great way to start understanding the Law of Attraction. However when I read ‘The Secret’ I had no idea of where to begin and how to go about manifesting. If anything, it made me terrified of my thoughts. It wasn’t until a book called ‘Ask and it is Given’ literally landed onto my path that I began to understand how we go about deliberately creating our own reality. The book is written by a married couple called Esther and Jerry Hicks. The difference with this book is that Esther channels a family of non-physical beings called Abraham who’s intention is to remind us of the Laws of the Universe. Are you still with me?! Esther and Jerry’s connection with non-physical came about from reading another collection of books that was written by a married couple called Jane Roberts and Robert Butts who also channeled a non-physical entity who called himself Seth. This may sound too far fetched, or it may not, but there is something about these teachings that certainly has awoken something that has been laying dormant inside of me for a very long time. 

I was pretty lost before I came across these powerful teachings. I was ‘bobbing along’, blaming this person or that event for my misfortunes. I was spiralling down into a pit of darkness and misery, desperately searching for the light. I admit that my eyes have been open for a few years now, I understood that there was more to this world than getting up, going to work and sleeping. I just knew that there had to be more. The first book that opened up the spiritual path for me was ‘The Power of Now’ by Eckhart Tolle. It came at a time when I was screaming for help and answers, the person I was at the time did not sit well with me. I didn’t realise that subconsciously I was asking for spiritual help, that always seemed a bit too hippy for me. From that point my life drastically changed and I started to attract like minded souls and my spiritual path started to unfold. Yet there was still something that I wasn’t quite getting. I trusted the universe, if anything I was at the mercy of what I thought it was throwing at me. And then Abraham came along and it all started to click into place, the teachings were clear to me. I am responsible for everything that unfolds on my path for I am the creator of my own reality. How powerful is that?! For some people this strikes absolute terror within them but it fills me with happiness, freedom and peace. 

So how do we go about creating our own reality? There are three stages: 

  1. You ask
  2. The answer is given
  3. You let it in

The first two steps are simple. A desire is born, you offer a vibration and the universe hears and acknowledges your request. It’s the third step that trips a lot of us up, myself included! 

Our emotions are the big players here. They are wonderful indicators as to how far or close we are to becoming a vibrational match to our desire. The worse you feel, the further away you are. We hold many beliefs that prevent us from allowing certain things onto our path. But beliefs are just fiction masquerading as fact. If you believe that life is a struggle then you will attract experiences that will prove this. If you believe that the doughnut will make you fat, then it will make you fat. Yet how many people do you know that eat the doughnut and don’t get fat? Well, that’s because they hold a belief that it won’t even touch the sides! Everything that we experience matches the beliefs we hold. The aim then is to recognise what beliefs you have and if you feel like they are not serving you then start to change them. Believe and know with all your might that the doughnut is like eating a piece of lettuce! (If doughnuts are your thing of course). Easier said than done but there are many processes out there to help. 

What I am starting to understand is that life is supposed to be fun. We’re here to joyfully create. To enjoy the expansion of our desires (because they never stop!). Let a new desire be born and then get off of the subject. You wouldn’t plant your vegetables and then continuously stamp on them. Enjoy your life and let the universe orchestrate experiences that will bring your requested desire with ease and fun. 

This blog was born out of my desire to find joy. I journal for hours every day, so why not share what I’m learning. I’m already feeling excited about what will unfold here.

Rather than focus on the lack of your manifestation, focus on what’s already here. Feel the excitement of your desire NOW, feel the alignment NOW. All of our desires are born because we think that we will feel better and happier with the manifestation of them. The key is to feel the joy that you think it will bring you NOW. That’s what I meant earlier about becoming a vibrational match. We are vibrational beings who offer a vibrational frequency whenever a desire is born. Think of it like a radio frequency, you can’t listen to 98.9fm if you’re stuck on 87.5fm. Keep it simple, get out of the way and let the universe bring you what you know that you deserve. 

Something’s Coming

The flow.

Does that mean anything to you? It certainly didn’t mean a thing to me a while back. I was blissfully unaware of the laws of the universe. Laws? The universe has laws? What are you talking about?!

Maybe we’ll back track a bit.

My name is Ryan, I’m 25 and I live in London. I grew up in Bristol and I moved to Guildford when I was 18 to train as an actor. It was all pretty straight forward initially until ‘reality’ sunk in when I left drama school and it took me just under 3 years to get my first break. I didn’t really understand why at the time. Audition after audition, endless rejection. Where am I going wrong? Am I crap? Am I ugly? Should I just give up? Sound familiar?

Well It turns out that my first job was a show that I had wanted to be in for years. A show that I had put a lot of thought into, I had dressed on it, I had even worked as a stage manager on it. I knew that it made sense that I should be in the show, I got a little cocky about it in fact. I deserve to be in that show! It ended up aligning at the perfect time, of course, and the ‘coincidences’ surrounding the event were almost too good to be true. You see, I have learnt a really exciting secret: we are the creators of our own reality.

We create our own reality?! What?! Why would I allow all this bad stuff to happen to me if I created my own reality? Don’t be so ridiculous Ryan!

But trust me, it’s true. In fact, it’s exactly why we’re here. Now I know that I’m being very vague at this stage, there’s a lot to understand and I’m still learning myself. I’m hoping that by sharing my journey and discoveries that I can help others fully realise their desires. There are endless amounts of Blogs out there describing an actors struggle to find work but I am understanding that there are so many forces at play here. This is my spin on an actors journey. An actors spiritual journey.